Haven't been on here in a while and since i have so much has changed. For a start i got that serious help that i said i needed. I spent six months in therapy weekly and that has helped me realise that i'm worth a lot more than what i was giving my self credit for. I started to actualyl like myself and have stopped self harming. I still have bad days and i dont think i'll ever be completely clear of my depression but i've learnt to deal with it a lot better. Also i've fallen in love with an amazing guy. He's considerate, caring, attractive, intelligent and he understands what i went through and is always prepared to talk to me about it when i need to. I can't believe he found me the day i needed him most. I owe him so much..... any ideas how i could repay him?

I will right on here more often, feels good to just blab away lol!