I went to James yesterday. Even after everything he did to me i'm still addicted to him. I know he's really sorry about it all and i believe that but that still doesn't mean he wouldn't do it all again. Yesterday was so different though. He was so much more attentive to me and for sensitive....we actually had a conversation without biting each others head off for a start which never happens. I can't stop thinking about yesterday....it was so different to what its been the other times i've been round there. It was just so magical....i've never felt like that with anyone before.....he was so.....i can't think of the word i want. I don't think he feels the same level of addiction, shall we say, that i do but feelings can grow.

I just hope that it stays like this....the new James is a lot nicer than the old one.